Frustration, Irritation… Peace

Today  (well since it is after midnight, I should really say yesterday) was one of those days that starts off perfectly, then tries to go to hell in a hand basket.  I woke up on time (5:30 AM), read my devotion, prayed, chose my mediation scripture for the day, walked Ivori, washed dishes, showered, dressed and made it to the jail to visit clients by 9.  Jail visits took several hours.  But, that is to be expected when you have 10 clients (charged with serious, violent felonies) to speak with in one day.  When I left the jail, I was awfully pleased with myself because I had had a very productive day.   BUT, when I got to the office, chaos awaited, including (but DEFINITELY not limited to 🙂 )a grievance filed with the State Bar by a client with whom I had just spent over an hour.  I became irritated. The time it took to vent to my friend, inform my supervisor about the grievance and what was going on in the case, vent some more and then finally respond to the grievance was time I could have spent working on his case.  After I dealt with other things that needed my attention, I became more and more irritated. I ended up staying at the office later than expected, which had me in a tizzy. I almost decided not to attend the private screening of a new HBO Documentary – Gideon’s Army (all about the important work of Public Defenders), which will premiere on HBO on July 1, 2013 at 9:00 PM.  You can learn more about it here.
As I was driving home from the screening, I decided that there would be no TV lulling me to sleep. Instead, I decided  I was going to find some more scripture to meditate on.  I got home, got my thesaurus and my iPad.  When I opened my e-mail there was a devotion from Proverbs 31 Ministries with 3 verses of scripture that I needed at that very moment.  They are below.
May God, the source of hope, fill you with all joy and peace by means of your faith in him, so that your hope will continue to grow by the power of the Holy Spirit.
– Romans 15:13 (GNT)
We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia.  We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself.  Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death.  But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.
– 2 Corinthians 1:8-9 (NIV)
We are often troubled, but not crushed; sometimes in doubt, but never in despair; there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend; and though badly hurt at time, we are not destroyed.
– 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 (GNT)
We have to write God’s word on our hearts so that when the devil places obstacles in our way we can counter them (and ward off bad moods and irritation) with God’s word.  And, even when we feel we are at our lowest, we must remember that we can always reach up to God and ask him for strength to endure the hardships we encounter. When we ask God for strength, he will not only provide it, he will also provide peace because of the faith we have in him.   Good night.
Peace and blessings!
P.S.  I will post a few pics from my birthday festivities soon.

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